Incase you see this๐Ÿ’”

I think we rushed that’s why he left, or maybe it was my stubbornness, or did I offend him? I guess I did offend him๐Ÿ˜ช Or is because I refused to show up on his birthday, or is it about the girl he told me not to worry about ๐Ÿฅบ Did I do wrong by telling him I didn’t like her? Or is because I went through his phone that morning that everything went left๐Ÿ˜ช Was I the problem? Or was the sex that bad? Was I not assuring enough for him to open up to me? Or is it that I was pushy?

Please make me understand why he opted to up and leave. He said he loved me he promised to stay by me. Did my anxiety push him away or was it my insecurities? I wanted it to work God knows I did but why didn’t he feel the same way? I guess I’ll never know ๐Ÿ˜“ I guess it’ll be this way till forever. But what forever is it ๐Ÿ’” is it the same forever he meant when he said that forever ain’t forever if it ain’t with me?๐Ÿ’”

All I ever wanted was us all I still want is us but if that’s not what you wanted why didn’t you say so? Were you afraid to break my heart the same way you broke it when you chose to leave? Or was it because you felt pity for little ol’ Lexie?

Should I call him and get my answers? Will he pick or will he decline the call like he did the rest ๐Ÿ˜“ It hurts, make it stop. I can’t do this, I can’t feel shit, please make it stop๐Ÿ’”